Thursday, January 29, 2009

I Love it when me boss is on a retreat

This morning J left for a 2 day retreat, along with all the other cheeses. That means that my phone is not ringing very much at all, which means I am happy. It has been a busy few days, so it is a nice little break to not have all that much to do. I think it is funny that I say this, because not too long ago I was saying how I was bored out of my tree. Oh well, after the last two weeks I am enjoying my breather.
Last after work A came to get me, and I was hungry and tired and grumpy. We had time to kill before our volleyball game, and so he took me to Kelseys for dinner in the hope that I would degrumpify. Dinner definitely helped, and since we still had some time left we went to Sofaworld to get some ideas for couches for our family room. We had sooo much fun shopping, we had the showroom all to ourselves, I guess people didnt really want to brave the snowstorm to shop for a couch, and so we tried pretty much every chair and couch in the place, while giggeling about ugly upholstery, and hard cushions. We found a set that we like, but seen as though it is the only store we have tried so far, we still need to shop around some more. I am really looking forward to changing around our family room, because the way it is right now isn’t really working all that well for us. I will keep you posted.
After Sofaworld we played volleyball. It was my first game, and I really enjoyed myself. My arms feel a little bruised today but it was totally worth it. I think I might play again next week. It was in a high school gym, totally low key, and I felt comfortable even though I wasn’t doing well, which if you know me means a lot. I am really hard on myself usually when I am trying something new and I am not stellar at it. And because of that I often feel nervous and am not having a good time. I have been trying really hard through soccer to be less hard on myself in situations like that. So I am extra happy that even though I was the worst player on the field, I enjoyed it a lot and am even considering going back. Small step for man… you know…
Overall, a good end to a long day.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Happy Birthdays

I realise reading back my previous post that it could look a little doom and gloomy. It certainly wasn’t meant that way. It was me being super sleepy after a night of not sleeping very well, just sort of going on a tangent, so for all of you worried out there, I didn’t have anything specific in mind, sorry if I made it seem as if I was in trouble somehow and thank you for your concern, I really appreciate it J
Friday night was a really nice, unexpected date night. I dropped A off to get his hair cut, while I went to pick up a gift for J.I came back for A and we then went out for Sushi, it was *so* good! I absolutely love sushi. The first time I had it, it wasn’t really that exciting, but the more often I eat it the more delicious I think it is. I am a big fan of it right now. I am particularly fond of the rolls, not so much of sashimi.
Saturday I spent mostly in the kitchen baking a birthday cake for K for that evening. I found a cool recipe for a chocolate-oatmeal cake (don’t judge until you have had it!) but it wasn’t enough batter for the size cake pan I was using, which I didn’t realise until after I had made the first cake, so I made two instead. I put strawberry jam in between the two layers, made a chocolate glaze for the top and put chocolate shavings and fresh strawberries on for decoration. I was happy with how it turned out, It was extremely chocolaty though, so I am not sure if I will make it again anytime soon. We went over to K and Js place for the celebration. We ordered pizza which ended up being free because they made a mistake with which store should make it. It still ended up getting there around the time they said they would deliver it, but it was free anyway. It was a nice low key celebration.
Sunday during the day I caught up with the folks back in europe. I always enjoy talking to them, and sometimes wish the time difference wasnt as large so I could speak to them after work from time to time. I get home too late to speak to them, so weekends are usually catch up time.
Sunday evening we celebrated J’s birthday at A’s parents house. Mom made pho and fresh spring rolls, there were different kinds of chips and fruit pizza for dessert. Gifts were given and after J and M left we stayed a while longer and had a nice visit with the in-laws.
Monday came too soon, I didn’t feel my weekend had been long enough really, and it was hard getting ready in the morning. A dropped me off at work, it was a busy day, something I wasn’t really ready for, and the end of the day couldn’t come soon enough. A came and got me, and we had a wonderful evening together. We ate our chilli in the dining room, with wine and fresh baguette, we had a great talk and it was just a perfect relaxing evening. I played some xbox, which I hadn’t done much of lately, and am starting to get the hang of my game a little more every time I play it. I am silly, because even though I know it is a game I get way to in to it. A makes fun of me. Every time characters try to punch me, my upper body automatically moves back from the screen, when I try to turn a corner, my body turns left or right to make a car turn faster, when my character jumps I make a little jumping motion with my arms and body, apparently it is quite entertaining. the evening ended with tea and chocolate cake, yum!

Friday, January 23, 2009

thoughts

I really didn’t feel like going to work today. On my way here, there were multiple times when I was really tempted to turn around and go home, or just not go to work and do something else all together. I thought, what if I don’t turn off the highway, and just keep driving. I could go to Montreal for the day, skip work, do something different, I almost did… but I didn’t, I made it to work and I was on time, surprisingly.
Being an adult isn’t always easy, and I am not always very good at it. Being very much an emotional and feeling oriented person sometimes makes it difficult to work with people that are extremely logical in nature. Sometimes I just don’t have the logical arguments it requires to get an important point across, things can be based on a hunch, a feeling, my intuition, and it is hard to have discussions when there isn’t any ‘evidence’, or sound reasoning behind it. The inner-scientist me and the emotional me have had arguments about it too, but over the years I have learned to trust my intuition, my hunch. It has brought me far, taught me a lot and sometimes you don’t need logic, sometimes you just know something deep down, and it doesn’t matter if logic points a different direction, sometimes your feelings are more right. So when I cant get my point across I feel frustrated, I don’t think feelings are worth less than logic, but they are hard to prove.
Other times it isn’t as clear cut. What if you know you aren’t completely right, but you cant help but feel a certain way. What do you do then. I don’t know how to turn the feel switch off and I don’t know if I want to. I do things with my whole heart, if my heart isn’t completely in it or got hurt, it is very difficult for me to continue on with things. I am a black and white person, little grey area. I am learning every day, but sometimes that isn’t enough. I am not good with change, if I thought something would be a certain way, it is difficult for me to realise and accept it isn’t, especially if I wanted it badly. How do I learn to be ok with less than what I want or need, with a project that didn’t turn out the way I envisioned but can still be alright, just not as good… I need to find some grey inside. At the same time, why do I need to settle for less?

Friday, January 16, 2009

Chilly times

The last few days have been terribly cold. I much prefer it when it snows, because that usually means it is warmer as well. I would rather shovel than feel cold. Mind you, I really dont have a lot to complain about compared to people I know who are working outside this week. I dont know how they manage it, especially people who dont have a nice home to go to stay warm. -39 windchill gross...!
This week has been rather busy. I wrote my first government test on wednesday. I think it went pretty well, but it is hard to say with tests like these, they can be extremely deceptive. The test reminded me a lot of an IQ test, you had to do basic arithmatic, logic questions, number series, and definition questions, which turned out to be the hardest for me, I dont think I did so hot on that section, but we will see. If I pass that exam I go on to the next round of language testing, but I am pretty certain I wont pass that. My french isnt good enough to be CBC, but at least I will have a baseline to start from, I will know where I am at and I can practise from there. I am going to try to do some studying in the next little while so I am somewhat prepared for these tests, but I am not overly concerned about them. Other than that work has picked up a lot and I actually feel like i am workign for my money. I like it!
I found out today I didnt move on to the next round in the lab tech job I applied for and I am a little sad about it, but what can you do, something else will come along. On a brighter note, rumor has it my current boss wants to get me into a better position in the department here and is talking to people about ways to keep me around. I am really excited about that, because I enjoy working here. The people overall are nice, I think I can learn a lot here, the commute is fine, it is a small branch in which you meet a lot of people of all levels, and so probably have a better chance at moving up or at least get to work on higher level projects, plus it is in the field I am interested in. I am still waiting to here back from some other applications as well. So, I am just going to continue chipping away at my career, and I am an overal happy camper.
Last night we had our good friends J and J over for potluck, the meal was Asian themed, so they brought their favorite chinese hot and sour and wonton soups, along with a delicious eggroll, and A docktered up a wonderful asian style pork tenderloin, rice, and cantonese chow mein, we were stuff and the food was delicious. After supper J and I went out for girls night movies. We went to see Australia, and I really enjoyed the movie, there was eye candy, I laughed I cried, I learned, I liked. J thought the movie was going to start at 9:00, but it turned out to start at 9:35 instead, so we ran to O'Conners for a drink. We discovered their liscence has been taken away for a month so we went to Moxies instead. We had a great time and talked about a lot of stuff, we almost didntmake the start of the movie. It didnt matter, we still had great seats, there were only 2 other people there. It was a late movie so I am super sleepy today, and cant seem to hit my stride at work. I guess I better try again.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Stuborn Stupid Sickness Season

I woke up with a scratchy throat again, and I am now sitting here with a headache. This better not mean I am getting sick again. I dont know what it is this season, I am not under a lot of stress, I am taking my multi vitamines dililgantly, i am getting enough sleep, I got my flu shot like a good girl. Oh well, I will fight what ever this is off again.
So this weekend was an overall nice weekend filled with a little bit of everything. We relaxed a lot, and ran errands. A and I bought some free weights and we started the training schedule I had started before the wedding. We did our first day of excersise on sunday and our legs are stiff as a board.
We also visited with our friends A and C and saw their little baby boy O. He is a month old now, and extremely cute. He has a tiny old man face, and he is really solid and likes to be heldas if he is standing. He is very cute.
We went for pho and noodle bowl after our visit and then we met up with our good friend M who might be leaving for whitehorse soon, I am so excited forher, and can not wait to hear about all the adventures!
Monday was a long day at work, and I ended up with a super headache from a room alarm that kept going off for over 30 minutes. A picked me up from work and it took about an hour for it to go away again. We went grocery shopping on our way home. I made dinner, A put stuff away and
we had a productive night. I made bread, I did dishes, I vacuumed (Aka reggie roomba did the work, i just got the rooms ready) I did a load of laundry, I did my handwash and I removed salt stains from my boots.
I am hungry, it is time for some lunch

Friday, January 09, 2009

Sleepy Friday

Wednesday A dropped picked me up from work. It was a very snowy day and traffic was crazy and on the way home he surprised me with a stop at an Indian food restaurant. It was a lovely surprise, because I had been craving indian food for about 3 weeks now. I dont get that very often, but occassionally I really enjoy it. After we got home I pretty much crashed and went to bed early instead of going to the volleyball game I was planning to go to. I had only slept a couple of hours the night before, and I couldnt keep it together anymore.
Yesterday was a productive day at work. I got a lot done and got lots of compliments from people at work, even someone I only spoke to over the phone, who seemed so impressed with my efficiency that she offered me a job after my casual term is done. I have no idea in what capacity, or whether it is anything I would like to do, but I will keep her name in mind. That is for sure!
I stopped at the grocery store on my way home from work, and bought some long needed food. We hadnt done any in weeks, and we were both wanting healthy food. After supper we played Grand theft Auto 4, a game we had borrowed. It is pretty fun so far. But appearantly I am a terrible driver in this game. I am slowly starting to get the hang of it. It is a lot more developed than the last gta I played. You can go an dates, go bowling out for dinner, whatever, it is really kind of cool. I will let you know how that goes.
Tonight we are going for dinner at our friends K and C. I am really looking forward to it. I stopped in at the LCBO at lunch time to pick up a couple of bottles of wine with my coworker L, and ended up finding a South African wine I have been looking for for a little while now, Nederburg, so I am super excited to try it. I had it at a friend's house, and I couldnt remember which of the reds I liked so much, the shiraz or the cabernet sauvignon. I bought the cabernet, and a white as well, I will let you know how that went.
However, I am not feeling particullarly productive at work today, hence the writing on my blog I suppose. there isnt anything to do, and my head feels like it is stuck in cottonballs. I am supposed to learn how to book travel today, depending on whether my C gets his work cleared enough to show me. I realise I truely like working. I like not having homework when I come home, I like a lot of the people here. It is a good spot to be. And I am getting paid fairly well. I wouldnt mind staying in this agency with these people, but I would prefer to have a more challenging job. people are starting to notice my work around here, so I think that at least is a good start on the road to a better job. Time for an open eyed nap!

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

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I am currently watching Fringe.. It is strange, and I think I kind of like it. I am not decided yet.
Other than that it was an overall ok day. Nothing exciting. I realised for the first time since i finished school that i really miss working in a lab. I am also getting a little impatient that no interesting jobs have come up lately. Tomorrow is another day, and hopefully I will find an interesting post somewhere.
I found out they sell collapsable crates at Canadian Tire and I am really excited about that. I was planning on buying some next time I was in europe, but I may not have to. I saw them in the flyer, not real life, so I am not entirely sure whether they are the same, but they look like they should be. They are wonderful for groceries, you can just keep the crates in your car trunk and then take them in to the store when you need them.
I am tired.. I think fringe will have to wait for another day.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Cozy on the couch with tea

Im sitting on the couch next to my husband. It still feels amazing to say that. I notice that when I am in a store I tend to mention the word husband regularly. For instance, oohh I think my husband would enjoy this cheese... Oh I need to return this paint, my husband doesnt like the pink tone it has. Ohh, I think my husband will like this sweater....
It is interesting to see how different people treat you when you say you want to return something or need something and instead of boyfriend you mention you are married. People seem to take you more seriously. I think that is a little sad, but I suppose it makes sense..
I am looking at all the tealights burning, my kitty sleeping curled up on her chair, my husband next to me on the couch, and tea and cookies in front of me. I feel happy and content.
Last night was a good time. We had dinner at S and Ls, and played a game K and J brought. It was a really fun game, and I enjoyed playing it. After that we watched Tropic Thunder. It was rather lame, but it was amusing to watch non the less.
Today I spent some time organizing the study room. We pretty much placed all our gifts and everything else we used for the wedding in that room. We havent really been able to use the room because of it, and there have been multiple times where I wished I could. It is going to be a hobby room, and it is a perfect spot for doing the jigsaw puzzle we got for christmas and some painting I have been wanting to do. I have most of the wedding stuff organized into separate boxes now, so the room already looks much better. Now I need to find spots for the items and return some stuff to people that were kind enough to lend us things to use at the wedding.
After that I want to reorganize the whole room, tidy away my old school stuff and really turn it into a usable hobby space.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

good times, grumbly tummies

We had a really nice christmas. As has become our tradition, A and I went to his parents house christmas eve and slept over. I got into my PJs early, we ate lots of junkfood, watched `Its a wonderful life` and then we went to bed. I stayed up long enough to hear Santas sleigh bells. I remained quiet so he wouldnt know I was still awake and so we still got presents. There were lots of them. It was the christmas of doubles. Great minds think alike, and so somethings were returned or exchanged. Overall we were really happy with what we received. We had a lovely christmas dinner, with parents and longtime friend of the family J. Just the 5 of us. I made the gravy. There was lots of food and it was a very cozy intimate, and wonderful christmas dinner, our first as a married couple. :)
Boxing day we braved EB games and Costso. A finally got to buy his long pined for Roomba vacuum robot, who now keeps our floors spectacularly clean. We also bought a couple of new games, one of which (dance dance revolution) was returned a couple of hours later. A`s feet were to big for the mat, haha.
In the mean time we caught some kind of flu bug, very uncomfertable, but not completely disabling. It hits you in waves. Mine is mostly stomach and intestinal pain, and nausea. Ick, hopefullyit will pass soon.
New Years eve some friends from university came over and stayed. There was lots of food, (mostly cheese), wine and champagne, Rockband, catch up and games. It was a fun time.
New Years day was a special day for A and I, we met each other 8 years before on this day. We went for new years day dinner at his parents, it was delicious. I got to play my new Scrabble game. Friday was a sleepy day and tonight we are meeting up with our friends S and L and K and J. I am looking forward to it already. On that note, I better go get ready.

Friday, January 02, 2009

Gelukkig Nieuwjaar!

Happy New Year everyone, hope the new year will bring you health, happiness and all you hope for!